Day 23 – making progress

I decided to try to return to weight lifting today. Obviously only upper body. As an initial matter the logistics of getting on the bow flex brought me to tears. But where there is a will there is a way. I was able to do all but two of my typical upper body exercises (the other two require standing). I cut the weight down by 10-20 lbs. but probably could have done the regular weights. Prior to surgery was doing 300 raised leg sit ups a couple of times per week, but can’t figure out how to do even one yet- since leg is still painful and has very little function. I actually have to pick it up to move it. Going to work 1/2 days for one more week. I keep reading posts on various boards of people who just give up on sports like running after this surgery so I am bummed out. I know that there are successful surgeries- maybe its just whiners like me who bother to blog about it. I have accepted that I will not be running full marathons most likely ever again (although I admitt that one percent of me hopes I’m wrong). But I’d at least like to run a few more half marathons and lots of 10ks – we shall see. When I lay in bed at night I start worrying that the whole thing will fail … In the morning I try to remember that I am the person who almost never got sick, healed really fast, was in great shape and worked out almost everyday right up to the day before surgery. I guess I just have to keep a positive attitude and hope for the best! I may try to go tothe grocery store today with my husband and ride in one of those motorized carts- awesome – just the look I’ve been hoping for!