1 YEAR FOLLOW UP TODAY

Well, to say it’s been a really bad few days would be an understatement. I had my MRI (which is really a MR Cartigram) on last wednesday. They gave me the films to bring to my doctor. BAD IDEA. I have spent the last five days staring at the pictures and researching stuff on the internet. I can’t sleep and I can’t concentrate – because to me it does not look good. Keep in mind I do not have any medical training whatsoever. However, ironically, the knee has felt kind of bad over the last week, like it did before surgery. I think the best outcome I can expect, based upon my completely uneducated review of the films is that I will need revision surgery for overgrowth. The worst possible result will be a graft failure – which I am terrified of and have managed to convince myself is the case by gazing non stop at the 50 or so pics of my knee that I have in my possession. I will know the answer to this in about 4 hours. I am completely beside myself and am hoping I will look back on this and laugh at my ridiculousness. Keep good thoughts coming my way!The thought of all I have been thru for it to fail, is unimaginable. Living life with constant knee pain does not sound good either. UGGHHHHHHHHH