desperate2run

I am more than seven months post surgery now. I have been doing PT on my own at home religiously and continue to exercise at least 5 x per week. I noticed yesterday that when I went on a 4 + mile walk with my daughter, that I did not need to ice my knee when I returned. This was a pretty good improvement from one month prior – when I took the same walk and was in pretty rough shape by the time I got home. My “bad” leg is still smaller than my good leg (the quad mainly). Stairs are still a challenge, but going down is getting more controlled. I have a lot of concern that when I get my MRI at the one year mark something will be wrong, but that is just me being concerned over things that I know nothing about. I have no sharp pains, just a lot of stiffness and some slight swelling at the end of the day – especially if I try to wear heels. I would say that I am about where I was before the surgery in terms of mobility. My hope is that over the next 4 1/2 months that I will get to the point where my knee will feel somewhat normal. I miss the days of running up the stairs to grab something from my kid’s room and not thinking of it as a journey. And, of course, I miss running. It has been 11 months since I went on my last run – I miss it just as much today as I did when this first happened. Just keeping my fingers crossed that I will be able to at least run reacreationally again. On the up side, I have not gained any weight over the last year, and in fact lost a few pounds. I have done a ton of upper body work that I would not have done otherwise, so I am not wasting away or turning into a blob. Mentally I would say I am not as good as I used to be on the happiness scale, but I am better than I was over the summer…. Here is hoping 2013 the “year of recovery” — even if we are at the “fiscal cliff”!