Went to the doctor today because I was getting worried about the lack of function in my quad and pretty much getting sick of dragging a dead limb around town. Doctor said that I am slightly behind on recovery, probably because my muscles are refusing to override my fear of pain response being sent by my brain. Translation – I’m a whimp. Bummer. He says I have “mentally divorced my left knee.” Ha – I wish I could! Anyway, he said that I needed some tough love PT for a few weeks – which I am totally cool with. I start Thursday, which will further mess up my work schedule, but I can’t help that really. I anticipate that this will be painful. However, I would rather feel pain (knowing I am not hurting my graft) than sit around lugging around the dead weight of my left leg.
Things I am grateful for at this point 1) take out; 2) clothes that do not need to be ironed; 3) places with no stairs; 4) the internet- allowing shopping from the couch; 5) people who help me out; 6) the fact that I do not have a terminal illness or that none of my loved ones are in peril; 7) that my great dane sleeps most of the time, and therefore only occassionally steals my food or gets in my way; 8) my awesome plastic shower seat; 9) the fact that surgery apparently steals your appetite so I am not getting fat while I sit here; 10) that I will be off crutches 4 weeks from this Thursday! Things which I need to improve: 1) my children’s ability to put dishes in the dishwasher, fold clothes and pick up stuff they leave ALL OVER the house; 2) muscle control; 3) range of motion in my knee and 4) placing the foot of the offending leg flat on the floor while crutching to keep it from turning blue. AHH so much to look forward to…. Until next time…
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